I have a girlfriend, but for ages, I had these urges to get to know my neighbor, a guy. One day, I plucked up the courage to talk to him and we got on really well. We started hanging out loads, and then he told me he was gay. Unexpectedly, I was strangely happy and he asked why I was smiling. I kissed him and we had sex right there. I'm still with my girlfriend and I love her, but every time I 'hang' out with Ben we just can't help ourselves. I'm thinking about ending it with my girlfriend and starting a relationship with Ben, as I think I really do love him.