Very Confusing To Me

My name is Cindy. I'm twenty-one and I'm confused. I have been having sex with an older man. He's forty-eight, but he looks much younger. I always had the hots for him, and one day I finally decided to go for it. This was two years ago. He was our next door neighbor at the time. I was alone one day when he came over looking for my dad. We started some small talk, but nothing happened that day. But from that day on, I really turned up the flirting with him. One day he asked my mother if I could baby sit his kids for a few hours for him. My mom said it was okay even before asking me. Of course, I would have said okay anyway. So, before I went to his house, I went to my room. I took my panties off and put on a small, little dress. I knew when I got there that we wanted each other. His wife was at work, so that wasn't a problem. Plus, he had sent his kids to their bedroom to play video games, so they were out of the way as well. Once we were completely alone, we started to talk about general things. The next thing I knew, he was telling me how he feels about me. I told him I felt that same way, too. Then we kissed. It was wonderful. Before long, we had awesome sex together. Needless to say, we had the best time ever, and we still do it whenever we can. But now I'm feeling very attached to him, yet I know this is wrong. I can't stop seeing him. Am I falling in love with him? Or is it just a sexual addiction on my part? This is very confusing to me.

— Cindy, 21

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