Ashamed Afterwards

I desired sex with a man, although I relate better to women. I acted on my desire after frequently dreaming of doing it. I was in a sex conversation with a friend and mentioned that I had tried a male relationship; I had experimented with it, but never completed the act. He wanted details and I confessed to performing oral. As we talked, he convinced me to do it for him, and I did. I was embarrassed afterwards, but have done it many times to other men since then. After it's over, I am ashamed of doing it. I never liked porn that much and had never watched gay porn, but when I saw some recently I immediately became physically excited. It was very obvious. The two friends who started the video picked up on it. Maybe someone had told them what I do. So now, I have even done two at a time.

— Frank, 41

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